For this final online reflection I want to
write about my big passion in life, football. When I was little I played
football on a daily basis, every single day I was on the schoolyard with my
childhood friends kicking the ball around the court. This was my big passion in
life and I played in KBK, Karlstad Ball Club for 7 years. We didn’t have a
great team, but we liked to play. Some of us were better than the others, I was
one of the better players and didn’t get substitute a single time when I was
playing. I played as a right wing because of my great left foot. I was in
charge of all the corner kicks and free kicks that were given to our team. One season
I scored 6 goals only from corner kicks and my left foot was feared by all the rivalry
teams. When I Was 14 years old I hurt my knee and didn’t recover for a long
time, and the passion for playing football began to erase itself so I quit
playing half a year after this occasion. This might be the biggest mistake I’ve
taken in my life so far and I often think of what could have been. People who
read this might think that I’m full of it and that I praise myself to much but
I was elected to the district championship to defend the colors of Värmland and
to a training camp in Stockholm for perspective players born in 1990 before I got
injured. The lack of passion grew bigger because I couldn’t really run for a
long time and as fast as I wanted before I felt the pain in my knee, and this
made me feel unable to achieve what I wanted to achieve. If I just could fought
a little more for it, who knows, maybe I wouldn’t need to write this online reflection
at all. Maybe I would sit in my mansion down in Madrid, Barcelona or Paris,
enjoying the great weather with a corona after a trainingsession with one of the biggest teams
in the world.
I often think of it, that I’m a little bit of a
person who don’t fight for things as much as I want to, in that perspective I’m
maybe a little lazy, a little too comfortable with myself and my achievements when
I maybe could have done so much more. I don’t know, maybe I couldn’t be a great
football player, or an excellent student, but I think I could have fought more
and this is a story about this specific cliché. Everybody can do whatever they
want, just get your mind into it and fight for it. So are you a fighter, or
half a warrior as myself?
I’m sorry to hear about your injury. I’ve heard so many stories of talented young player getting injuries and destroying their carriers. You are definitely not alone, this has probably happened to many people, despite the sport they are active in. The only thing you can do at this point is to not look back at your history and move on forward, it is never too late. You might be excellent at other things, such as school, making music, playing an instrument or something similar. Keep on fighting.
SvaraRaderaCheers
Your text makes me sad because I remember when your injury occurred. You where known as one of the best players in your age and one of the biggest talents in Värmland, that I remember because players in my team talked about you, I remember how my two coaches and other people involved talked about Tomislav Kovacevic with the great technique, speed and left foot. It is a shame that your injury occurred because you could have been a good player and I agree with you that you should have fought back when your injury occurred, many players and I mean professional players go through and injury, it is a part of football and if you had wanted it more you would have recovered from your injury.
SvaraRaderaI don’t know, maybe you should have had more soul and will, or maybe you just liked life so much that you didn’t have the will to train and work hard to become a professional football player. I mean, the typical player does not think about drinking corona after the training session, maybe in England but not in other places. A football player thinks of how good or bad his training was, how many goals he scored, which car to buy and model to date, and has focus on the next day’s trainings session. But you where talented that I have to point out, people can think what they want but you are not over your head.
To answer your question about myself I am pretty much the same as you, a little lazy when it comes to wanting things or fighting for them. Instead I’m the person that is doing things his own way because he knows that it will work out in the end, I would not be surprised if you shared those thoughts.
Thank you for sharing your story to the rest of us.
Sorry to read about your injury. And it's sad to read about your passion for football left you at 14.
SvaraRaderaTo answer you question, I think I'm more like you, a half a warrior than a fighter. I too easily get to comfortable with my situation and not fight enough to get things done. I think this is a quite common problem.
Thank you for sharing.
Take care.